Period!!!

Saturday November 7th I got my first period since I was pregnant. I was sad for a split second when I started but realized this is my body getting back on track since the ectopic pregnancy. It is a little heavier and longer then normal but that is to be expected.

I told Jay that now I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am ready to start trying to have a baby again. Jay and I agreed to take Jose’s advice and wait after the first cycle. I think 3 cycles is to long….sorry Dr. Gorgon. Jay and I are going to try for another month with NO help. The second month if I am not pregnant I am going in for the hSG scan. I feel confident that we will be pregnant within the next year.

For the first time since we started trying I really do not care if it happens this month or 3 months form now. Technically in three months it would be more ideal. I am a school teacher and I get more breaks during November and December so if the baby is born then instead of August or September I would not lose as much sick/vacation time. WHO KNOWS!

Each day I get stronger and stronger knowing I will someday have a baby BUT I just don’t know when. The UNKNOW drives me insane. I also do not cry anymore when I see a pregnant woman. Jay has a sister who is pregnant and is quickly approaching her due date. I told Jay it would be much easier for me to see her with the baby IF I WAS PREGNANT!!!!

I am making a promise to myself right now:
I AM NOT GOING TO STRESS ABOUT BEING PREGNANT FOR ANOTHER 5 MONTHS. SO IN MARCH IF I AM NOT PREGNANT I WILL BE ALLOWED TO START WORRING.

I have really wanted an iPhone. Jay being the wonderful husband that he is surprised me Friday night. We got in the car 2 hours early to meet our friends for dinner…he told pulled up to AT&T and said, “We are getting you an iPhone.” I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!

Jay’s job is doing real well. I am so proud of how hard he is working and the way he is providing for his family. I see a very bright future for us.

He promises me that our money situation for Christmas will be AWESOME!

God bless my husband, dogs, and family! I AM TRULY A LUCKY GIRL!