Dang Period……

Yes I started! What another heart break even when I know I will be better off getting pregnant in March. I started my period on December 7^th. The good news is that I am now officially a 31 day cycle. The past two cycles have been exactly 31 days. Before I got pregnant I never had an exact same length cycle back to back.

As far as trying goes we will be doing our best. This month I am set to ovulate on December 22^nd. I have explained to Jay the dates and we are going to be together EVERYDAY (12/17 – 12/23)! I am feeling really lucky this month. I feel confident that we know the days so we can plan on being together. I also will be on Christmas break which will give us more time.

My mom is having a major surgery on January 6^th which is the date of my expected next period. I am hoping that I can share the good news with my mother before she is put to sleep. I also have a sister-in-law who will be induced on the 12^th. Like I have said before I am happy for her but emotionally it would be easier for me if I were pregnant before my niece is born. So everybody cross your fingers for me. I will continue to pray A LOT!

Christmas break is one week away and I can not wait. Me, mom, and grand maw. I would really like to have a four generations picture soon! Maybe next month.

Post Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving has come and gone. I really needed that break. I enjoyed my break to the fullest. As far as ovulation goes: Saturday November 21 Jay and I were together. Sunday November 22 I had a darker line. I assumed that Monday November 23 would be the REAL dark day which would have meant I would be OVULATING but it went back to light pink. I am crossing my fingers that being together on Saturday would be good enough to make a baby. I will be testing soon!!!

I would love to be pregnant this month. I would know before Christmas…what a great Christmas gift. I have been having some sharp pains in my right side for the past couple of days. I wonder if the pains are all in my head?

I have decided that if this month is not the month IT IS OKAY. I am really pushing for getting pregnant in March. If I get pregnant in March I will not miss any of the cheerleading season. I hope to be posting next week with GOOD NEWS.

The month of November has been full of drama. My brother is doing much better. Jay and I bought the car from him. After buying the car we have found about $1,000 worth of repairs. OH WELL. My Thanksgiving at my house went real well. We had more friends then family but it was NICE. I really enjoyed the Worthy/McLarty Thanksgiving.

I love going to the movies so over the break we saw 2!!! The blind Side and 2012, they were both very good movies.

My prayer this time is for my friend Crystal. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Everything will work out.

Aubrey CONGRATUATIONALS. I am so happy for you and Chris.

My wonderful HUBBY!

The Happy couple!

This is the last time he can say I am his. Bye daddy.

He is so stinken cute!

This is my brother I am praying for. He is cute too!

I am always in a hurry! I rush my life away. Jay tells me to live in the moment and enjoy the day.


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I have done a lot of talking about Jay and how wonderful he is so I thought I would add some of our wedding photos.

HE IS SO STINKEN CUTE!!!

Life is good!

Jay loves that song so I thought it would make for a good title. I have mentioned before how happy Jay is and the song “life is good today” is Jay motto everyday. Thanksgiving break is one day away and I can not wait. OMG hurry up break. With all that has went on the past 4 months Thanksgiving seems to be taking forever to get here.

Now as far as baby making goes: I started taking ovulation kits 3 days ago. They have been light pink everyday. I am hoping Saturday will be DARK! Saturday is the day of ovulation for someone on a 33 day cycle. My cycles were 33 days before the MEX shot. EVERYBODY cross your fingers for a good DARK ovulation test on Saturday!!! I have tried to prepare myself that this month I might not ovulate but I am still getting real excited.

If I were to get pregnant this month we would know the second week in December. I should know if it is in my uterus by Christmas. That would be the best Christmas gift ever. I would love to experience our first Christmas as husband and wife PREGNANT!

Like always Jay is staying up beat. We talked last night about going to South Africa next New Years with a group of friends. He said we had a problem and I said what is the problem. He said that we could not go if we had a newborn or if I was in my third trimester. I was so thankful he did not say lets quit trying until after the South Africa trip. That would not be an option for me. I did however tell him that we would revisit the trip in June when we would buy the tickets. I would be willing if we were not pregnant in June to stop until after the trip.

I am so selfish because I know Jay has been working super hard and deserves an AWESOME vacation like South Africa but I still would rather be/get pregnant as soon as we can. I am hoping to go on a killer vacation over Christmas or my February break. I will keep my fingers crossed.

This is a prayer for my brother:
I know he is going through a very difficult time and he is very sad. I pray that my brother finds an amazing wife/mother. He really deserves a good life. Yes life does have its ups and downs but COME ON…

He is so ready to get married and have babies and I want him to have all of these wonderful things too. I have explained to him that you have to date crappie people to realize when you have a GREAT one. I think he finally sees how crappie she was. He forgot how to smile and enjoy life and anyone who knows Bryan knows he is fun to be around and makes people laugh. Jay thinks Bryan is a good dude.

I WISH BRYAN A LIFE TIME OF HAPPYNESS!!!

Period!!!

Saturday November 7th I got my first period since I was pregnant. I was sad for a split second when I started but realized this is my body getting back on track since the ectopic pregnancy. It is a little heavier and longer then normal but that is to be expected.

I told Jay that now I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am ready to start trying to have a baby again. Jay and I agreed to take Jose’s advice and wait after the first cycle. I think 3 cycles is to long….sorry Dr. Gorgon. Jay and I are going to try for another month with NO help. The second month if I am not pregnant I am going in for the hSG scan. I feel confident that we will be pregnant within the next year.

For the first time since we started trying I really do not care if it happens this month or 3 months form now. Technically in three months it would be more ideal. I am a school teacher and I get more breaks during November and December so if the baby is born then instead of August or September I would not lose as much sick/vacation time. WHO KNOWS!

Each day I get stronger and stronger knowing I will someday have a baby BUT I just don’t know when. The UNKNOW drives me insane. I also do not cry anymore when I see a pregnant woman. Jay has a sister who is pregnant and is quickly approaching her due date. I told Jay it would be much easier for me to see her with the baby IF I WAS PREGNANT!!!!

I am making a promise to myself right now:
I AM NOT GOING TO STRESS ABOUT BEING PREGNANT FOR ANOTHER 5 MONTHS. SO IN MARCH IF I AM NOT PREGNANT I WILL BE ALLOWED TO START WORRING.

I have really wanted an iPhone. Jay being the wonderful husband that he is surprised me Friday night. We got in the car 2 hours early to meet our friends for dinner…he told pulled up to AT&T and said, “We are getting you an iPhone.” I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!

Jay’s job is doing real well. I am so proud of how hard he is working and the way he is providing for his family. I see a very bright future for us.

He promises me that our money situation for Christmas will be AWESOME!

God bless my husband, dogs, and family! I AM TRULY A LUCKY GIRL!

Feeling Normal

My hCG levels have been under 6 for over a week. I am feeling more like myself everyday. I am still sad that I do not have a baby growing in my belly. I have said it before BUT I am going to say it again: I really think Jay and I will be pregnant again soon. I am hoping for the best.

I had some very light spotting today…IS THIS MY PERIOD? Who knows? I have no idea what to expect. I have not had the typical bleeding after the methotrexate shot. I have bled one or two day very light. I had a few days here and there of VERY LIGHT spotting so I am not sure what my first period is going to be like. All the other blogs I have read the women are bleeding for 4 to 6 weeks after the shot. I GUESS I AM A LUCKY ONE!!!

Jay has been the most amazing husband EVER! I know I have been crazy and hard to get a long with but Jay takes it in stride with a smile on his face. Jay is a very happy-go-lucky person. He is my inspiration and my hero. I wish I could be happy all the time and never let things bother me.

I still find myself talking about babies ALL the time. I want one so bad that I dream about them all most every night. I feel that this bump in the road (ectopic pregnancy) will make me more appreciative when I actual get pregnant with a healthy baby in my UTERUS.

As for my goals I made last week here is my up date:
1. NO SMOKING AS OF TODAY…I did not smoke all week but I did smoke on the weekend. (My best friend Marybeth needed me too.) Today I am back to NO smoking.

2. Lose 20 pounds…I ate a lot of Mexican this weekend and I am sure I did not lose any weight.

3. Stop eating McDonalds for breakfast…I had McDonalds 1 time in 7 days. THAT IS AWESOME!!!!

4. Take 2 folic acid pills everyday…EVERYDAY

5. Take prenatal vitamins everyday…EVERYDAY

6. Start running 3 to 4 times a week…I ran 3 times last week. I would have run more but it was raining. Jay told me he would pick up my treadmill tonight.

7. BE HAPPY…I was happier last week then I have been since the whole thing started. Jay, mom/dad/Bryan, dogs, and Marybeth are the reason for my happiness. I AM BLESSED!!!!!

Baby on Mind!!!

My name is Alison and my husband’s name is Jay. We got married on May 23, 2009. IT WAS THE GREATEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!!

We have decided to start trying again. I found out I was pregnant September and by the end of September I was receiving a methotrexate shot to end the pregnancy because it was in my right tube. It took several weeks for my hGc levels to reach zero.

I received the phone call yesterday telling me my levels are down to “6.” WOW I could not believe it…I will have a period soon and things will go back to normal. Jay and I are so ready to try again.

Now that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel (I made some goals for myself):
NO SMOKING AS OF TODAY
Lose 20 pounds
Stop eating McDonalds for breakfast
Take 2 folic acid pills everyday
Take prenatal vitamins everyday
Start running 3 to 4 times a week
BE HAPPY

Poor Jay, he has had to deal with my ups and downs for the past 2 months. He has been the most wonderful husband and always trying to be optimistic even when I did not want him to be.

I know that EVERYTHING is going to be okay this time around. I really believe deep down that my ectopic pregnancy was a fluke. I know the doctors tell me to wait at least 3 months and have an hsG test but I DO NOT NEED ONE! Like I told Jay: It took us 4 months last time so I am sure it will take us that amount or longer this time…so why not start trying NOW! If my body is not ready to get pregnant again then it WONT! Jose told us a month or after my first cycle so I am listening to him.

I am so ready for my life to get back to normal. I am ready to quit being bitter, hating pregnant women and babies. I JUST WANT A HEALTHY BABY. I WANT TO BE A MOM. I WANT TO MAKE JAY A DAD. I JUST WANT A BABY.