Feeling Normal

My hCG levels have been under 6 for over a week. I am feeling more like myself everyday. I am still sad that I do not have a baby growing in my belly. I have said it before BUT I am going to say it again: I really think Jay and I will be pregnant again soon. I am hoping for the best.

I had some very light spotting today…IS THIS MY PERIOD? Who knows? I have no idea what to expect. I have not had the typical bleeding after the methotrexate shot. I have bled one or two day very light. I had a few days here and there of VERY LIGHT spotting so I am not sure what my first period is going to be like. All the other blogs I have read the women are bleeding for 4 to 6 weeks after the shot. I GUESS I AM A LUCKY ONE!!!

Jay has been the most amazing husband EVER! I know I have been crazy and hard to get a long with but Jay takes it in stride with a smile on his face. Jay is a very happy-go-lucky person. He is my inspiration and my hero. I wish I could be happy all the time and never let things bother me.

I still find myself talking about babies ALL the time. I want one so bad that I dream about them all most every night. I feel that this bump in the road (ectopic pregnancy) will make me more appreciative when I actual get pregnant with a healthy baby in my UTERUS.

As for my goals I made last week here is my up date:
1. NO SMOKING AS OF TODAY…I did not smoke all week but I did smoke on the weekend. (My best friend Marybeth needed me too.) Today I am back to NO smoking.

2. Lose 20 pounds…I ate a lot of Mexican this weekend and I am sure I did not lose any weight.

3. Stop eating McDonalds for breakfast…I had McDonalds 1 time in 7 days. THAT IS AWESOME!!!!

4. Take 2 folic acid pills everyday…EVERYDAY

5. Take prenatal vitamins everyday…EVERYDAY

6. Start running 3 to 4 times a week…I ran 3 times last week. I would have run more but it was raining. Jay told me he would pick up my treadmill tonight.

7. BE HAPPY…I was happier last week then I have been since the whole thing started. Jay, mom/dad/Bryan, dogs, and Marybeth are the reason for my happiness. I AM BLESSED!!!!!