My wonderful HUBBY!

The Happy couple!

This is the last time he can say I am his. Bye daddy.

He is so stinken cute!

This is my brother I am praying for. He is cute too!

I am always in a hurry! I rush my life away. Jay tells me to live in the moment and enjoy the day.


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I have done a lot of talking about Jay and how wonderful he is so I thought I would add some of our wedding photos.

HE IS SO STINKEN CUTE!!!

Life is good!

Jay loves that song so I thought it would make for a good title. I have mentioned before how happy Jay is and the song “life is good today” is Jay motto everyday. Thanksgiving break is one day away and I can not wait. OMG hurry up break. With all that has went on the past 4 months Thanksgiving seems to be taking forever to get here.

Now as far as baby making goes: I started taking ovulation kits 3 days ago. They have been light pink everyday. I am hoping Saturday will be DARK! Saturday is the day of ovulation for someone on a 33 day cycle. My cycles were 33 days before the MEX shot. EVERYBODY cross your fingers for a good DARK ovulation test on Saturday!!! I have tried to prepare myself that this month I might not ovulate but I am still getting real excited.

If I were to get pregnant this month we would know the second week in December. I should know if it is in my uterus by Christmas. That would be the best Christmas gift ever. I would love to experience our first Christmas as husband and wife PREGNANT!

Like always Jay is staying up beat. We talked last night about going to South Africa next New Years with a group of friends. He said we had a problem and I said what is the problem. He said that we could not go if we had a newborn or if I was in my third trimester. I was so thankful he did not say lets quit trying until after the South Africa trip. That would not be an option for me. I did however tell him that we would revisit the trip in June when we would buy the tickets. I would be willing if we were not pregnant in June to stop until after the trip.

I am so selfish because I know Jay has been working super hard and deserves an AWESOME vacation like South Africa but I still would rather be/get pregnant as soon as we can. I am hoping to go on a killer vacation over Christmas or my February break. I will keep my fingers crossed.

This is a prayer for my brother:
I know he is going through a very difficult time and he is very sad. I pray that my brother finds an amazing wife/mother. He really deserves a good life. Yes life does have its ups and downs but COME ON…

He is so ready to get married and have babies and I want him to have all of these wonderful things too. I have explained to him that you have to date crappie people to realize when you have a GREAT one. I think he finally sees how crappie she was. He forgot how to smile and enjoy life and anyone who knows Bryan knows he is fun to be around and makes people laugh. Jay thinks Bryan is a good dude.

I WISH BRYAN A LIFE TIME OF HAPPYNESS!!!

Period!!!

Saturday November 7th I got my first period since I was pregnant. I was sad for a split second when I started but realized this is my body getting back on track since the ectopic pregnancy. It is a little heavier and longer then normal but that is to be expected.

I told Jay that now I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am ready to start trying to have a baby again. Jay and I agreed to take Jose’s advice and wait after the first cycle. I think 3 cycles is to long….sorry Dr. Gorgon. Jay and I are going to try for another month with NO help. The second month if I am not pregnant I am going in for the hSG scan. I feel confident that we will be pregnant within the next year.

For the first time since we started trying I really do not care if it happens this month or 3 months form now. Technically in three months it would be more ideal. I am a school teacher and I get more breaks during November and December so if the baby is born then instead of August or September I would not lose as much sick/vacation time. WHO KNOWS!

Each day I get stronger and stronger knowing I will someday have a baby BUT I just don’t know when. The UNKNOW drives me insane. I also do not cry anymore when I see a pregnant woman. Jay has a sister who is pregnant and is quickly approaching her due date. I told Jay it would be much easier for me to see her with the baby IF I WAS PREGNANT!!!!

I am making a promise to myself right now:
I AM NOT GOING TO STRESS ABOUT BEING PREGNANT FOR ANOTHER 5 MONTHS. SO IN MARCH IF I AM NOT PREGNANT I WILL BE ALLOWED TO START WORRING.

I have really wanted an iPhone. Jay being the wonderful husband that he is surprised me Friday night. We got in the car 2 hours early to meet our friends for dinner…he told pulled up to AT&T and said, “We are getting you an iPhone.” I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!

Jay’s job is doing real well. I am so proud of how hard he is working and the way he is providing for his family. I see a very bright future for us.

He promises me that our money situation for Christmas will be AWESOME!

God bless my husband, dogs, and family! I AM TRULY A LUCKY GIRL!

Feeling Normal

My hCG levels have been under 6 for over a week. I am feeling more like myself everyday. I am still sad that I do not have a baby growing in my belly. I have said it before BUT I am going to say it again: I really think Jay and I will be pregnant again soon. I am hoping for the best.

I had some very light spotting today…IS THIS MY PERIOD? Who knows? I have no idea what to expect. I have not had the typical bleeding after the methotrexate shot. I have bled one or two day very light. I had a few days here and there of VERY LIGHT spotting so I am not sure what my first period is going to be like. All the other blogs I have read the women are bleeding for 4 to 6 weeks after the shot. I GUESS I AM A LUCKY ONE!!!

Jay has been the most amazing husband EVER! I know I have been crazy and hard to get a long with but Jay takes it in stride with a smile on his face. Jay is a very happy-go-lucky person. He is my inspiration and my hero. I wish I could be happy all the time and never let things bother me.

I still find myself talking about babies ALL the time. I want one so bad that I dream about them all most every night. I feel that this bump in the road (ectopic pregnancy) will make me more appreciative when I actual get pregnant with a healthy baby in my UTERUS.

As for my goals I made last week here is my up date:
1. NO SMOKING AS OF TODAY…I did not smoke all week but I did smoke on the weekend. (My best friend Marybeth needed me too.) Today I am back to NO smoking.

2. Lose 20 pounds…I ate a lot of Mexican this weekend and I am sure I did not lose any weight.

3. Stop eating McDonalds for breakfast…I had McDonalds 1 time in 7 days. THAT IS AWESOME!!!!

4. Take 2 folic acid pills everyday…EVERYDAY

5. Take prenatal vitamins everyday…EVERYDAY

6. Start running 3 to 4 times a week…I ran 3 times last week. I would have run more but it was raining. Jay told me he would pick up my treadmill tonight.

7. BE HAPPY…I was happier last week then I have been since the whole thing started. Jay, mom/dad/Bryan, dogs, and Marybeth are the reason for my happiness. I AM BLESSED!!!!!